Album: It Amazes Me

I'm Not Comming Back

came home from this aweful day
took a shower, tried to wash my pain away,
didn't work,
this fucked up situation couldnt get any worse,
i know,
cuz if it did i'd have to shoot myself first,
i know,
everything just fell to peices,
its hard enough,
why cant God just give me one thing,
thats all i ask for

why cant it just be like it used to be,
just you and me,
together,
its like a fantsy now,
and all i want is to see you again,
i wish you knew how much you mean to me,
oh i wish, i wish

that you would thake you last breath sitting by my side,
but its pain to me to know that we might never be the same,
all the times i talked to you at night,
about everything and nothing at all,
just to hear your voice it was like everything,
but my chances with you have been diminshed to nothing at all,
and its killing me, yeah its killing me cuz

why cant it just be like it used to be,
just you and me,
together,
its like an fantsy now,
and all i want is to see you again,
i wish you knew how much you mean to me,
oh i wish, i wish

and do you know,
how many times i've imagined dropping dead,
just to get away from his misery this life is causing me,
and everything in between,
and you know, is i could i'd run away,
hop a plane,
and meet you somewere i cant say,
but just hope its someplace far far away

i tired to talk it over in my mind cuz no one understands,
everything was fine,
and in a matter of a few wordsit all just fell apart,
so before i go,
just pray to God that i dont go and hurt myself,
even though they say its not worth it,
i dont care,
this fuckin life is horrible,
and if you really wanna know,
i love you more then anything,
more then you'll ever know,
and my dream just became a nitemare,
all once you said 'i'm not commin back'