Album: Suicides An AlternativeInstitutionalized
Sometimes I try to do things, and it just doesn't work out the way i want it to
and I get real frustrated, and like, I try hard to do it and I take my time
and it just doesn't work out the way I want it to, it's like I concentrate on it
real hard, and it just doesn't work out, and everything I do and everything I try
it never turns out, it's like I need time to figure these things out, there's always someone
there going, hey mike, you know, we been noticing you've been having alot of problems
lately, you know, maybe get away, and like, maybe you should talk about it,
you'd feel alot better, I go no, it's ok, you know, I'll figure it out,
just leave me alone I'll figure it out, you know, I'll just work it out myself, and they go, well
you know, if you wanna talk about it I'll be here you know, and you'll probably feel alot
better if you talk about it, so why don't you talk about it, I go, no, I don't want to, I'm ok,
I'll figure it out myself, but they just keep bugging me and they just keep bugging me,
and it builds up inside,
So you're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way
I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
I was in my room and I was like just staring at the wall thinking about everything
but then again I was thinking about nothing, and then my mom comes in and I didn't even
know she was there and she calls my name and I didn't hear her and then she started
screaming, MIKE, MIKE, and I go what, what's the matter, and she goes what's the matter
with you?
I go there's nothing wrong mom, and she goes don't give me that, you're on drugs, I go no
mom, I'm not on drugs, I'm ok, I'm just thinking, why don't you get me a Pepsi? She goes,
no, you're on drugs, I go mom, I'm okay, I'm just thinking, she goes no, you're not thinking,
you're on drugs, normal people don't act that way. I go mom, just get me a Pepsi please, all I
want is a Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me, all I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and
she wouldn't give it to me, just a Pepsi.
They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy
I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in and they pulled up a chair and they
sat down, they go, mike, we need to talk to you, I go okay, what's the matter? They go me
and your mom, we been noticing lately you've been having alot of problems, and you've been
going out for no reason, and we're afraid that you're going to hurt somebody, and we're afraid
you're gonna hurt yourself, so we decided that it would be in your best interest if we put you
somewhere where you could get the help that you need, and I go, wait, what are you talking
about, we decided? my best interest? How do you know what MY best interest is? How can
you say what MY best interest is? What are you trying to say? That I'm crazy? When I went
to your schools, I went to your churches, I went to your institutional learning facilities. So
how can you say I'm crazy?
They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead
I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
It doesn't matter, I'll probably get hit by a car anyway.