Album: All At Once (2011)

All I Ever Wanted

I can only say these things to you while you're sleeping.
I hear the hum from the wires and the sounds of the morning creeping.
I lie awake and pretend, you can hear me.

And you tell me that you're scared that you're turning into your mother.
I feel myself turning into my father.
As we lie to each other like they do, and say we're so happy.
It's easy when you're young and you still want it so badly.

I turn over in bed and I feel my heart beating faster,
I stare out the window and think I might scream.

And I could tell you that you're all I've ever wanted, dear
I could utter every word you'd ever hope to hear.
I shudder when I think that I might not be here forever, forever, forever.

The time we were alone together at the station,
You were so quiet like a child and you told me you want to be taken.
I never thought of you as the kind of girl who would do that.
And you suddenly seem like some faceless thing in my grasp.

And I'd be lying if I said that I didn't find it exciting,
Your eyes all wet, your face so warm and inviting.

And I could tell you that you're all I've ever wanted, dear
I could utter every word you'd ever hope to hear.
I shudder when I think that I might not be here forever, forever, forever.

I could tell you that I'm always gonna love
You like the virgin bride you were that night,
but I'd be lying.
Love is defying.

All I can think is that it must be a kind of Rebellion,
To arm these fears like soldiers and slay them.

And I can tell you that you're all I've ever wanted dear,
Through the din of your breathing while you're sleeping here,
and you wake and you ask me if I'm gonna be here forever, forever, forever.

Your face so twisted and your eyes alight,
I wanna tell you I can save you when you cry at night.
But I'll be trying.
Love is defying.